hmmm...

Why is this new to me!?! I'm learning so many new things about what it means to be a Christian. Friends, I have been a "Christian" for nearly 17 years, why is this simple idea of obedience been completely non-existant in my life till now?? Why have I been in a place where my sin is...acceptable to me? I have...FAILED! And it scares me, to the core. The more I discover about God and my Savior, Jesus Christ, the more I realize how far my nature is from them. Have I just failed to pay attention to this Sunday School class (which I desperately hope is this case), or has no one brought this to me??? And here's the kicker...wait for it, its key. The commandments he gives me, are not "DO NOT!" He yearns for us to do this, Love God, Love others. There is nothing there about drinking, or cursing, or fighting, or what have you. Love GOD!!!! And in doing so, the proof that reveals your love for him, the evidence of my passion for he who loves me, is simple obedience. I titled my blog pure, but I am the furthest from it I can imagine. As I sit here, I'm getting physically naseous from the realization of the sins I do, and love. Pray for that, but know this, GOD HIMSELF put this sickness in my stomache so I may learn to hate my sin. and its taking time, but I'm begining to examine myself. one thing at a time I will strive for purity. and Christ help me...literally.